It wasn’t until Jethro was six days old that we had the privilege of holding our sweet boy skin to skin. It was so painful seeing my boy and not be able to pick him up and hold him close. For six days we sat bedside praying for a miracle. I spent each second I could trying to memorize every inch of him because we knew that either way our son would be going “home”. That home would be the one we created for him here on earth or the home Christ had prepared for him in heaven.

I was overwhelmed by his beauty. In my eyes, despite the umbilical lines, the breathing tube, multiple pain medications running, and the heart monitor that crowded his body and bed, I still saw Jesus in him. Laying there in his innocence I was comforted by scripture found in Genesis 1. It reminded me of how and why each of us was created. And that we were made in the image (likeness) of our God. That He desires a relationship with us. That in moments like this He is here to comfort us and that no matter the pain and ugly we encounter He see GOOD – He makes GOOD.

Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals,and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”


So God created mankind in his own image,

    in the image of God he created them;
    male and female he created them.

 God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”

Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food. And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so.

 God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.

GENESIS 1:26-31

 

You are beautiful. You are GOOD. Very GOOD.
Many times I have to fight for that truth. Since my body didn’t protect my boy. Since I didn’t know what was happening. Since he was suffering while I was laboring. Since I couldn’t save him. I DIDNT FEEL GOOD. You may have to fight for that truth in your life. To combat the lies of guilt and shame. The plan and the outcomes are not ours to decide – and what a relief that is. I find peace and comfort knowing that He is God and I am not. That He is in control and that He has made me good.