Our Story

Our Story

Chantel & Joel Pagan

Joel and I met when I was a senior in college. For me, it was love at first sight. I remember as if it were yesterday the night Joel introduced himself to our marketing class. It was a brisk October night, I remember calling my Dad and saying “well, I found the man I am going to marry…there is only one issue… he is a Pagan”. (hence our last name). Being that my Dad is a humorous man and pastor of 30 plus years, he offered a priceless response. He said, “don’t you worry, just bring him on home and we’ll make a saint out of him”. So take him home is just what I did, it took months of persuading on my part, but we finally started dating. Three years later we moved to my hometown in New Mexico and were wed. We spent two years there before transitioning to Dallas, TX. Like all stories, ours has had its fair share of ups and downs, especially our story of becoming parents.

Our first son, Jethro “Jet” Pax, was born on September 7, 2017, and went on to dance with Jesus exactly one week later. My experiences in carrying him, birthing him, and then losing him, brought incredible pain, and also led us to Jesus in a way unlike we had ever experienced. Since Jethro’s birth, God has been taking us on the greatest journey. The Lord has exposed His love and character to us through so many tough moments. He has graciously taught, encouraged, and challenged us in the most beautiful ways. We know that that will not stop here as He will continue to grow gardens from us. Since Jet’s passing God has daily broken our heart for all the mommies and daddies who have lost a precious baby. This tug on our hearts led us to set up this blog as a place where we can share our experiences with people who have lost a baby. From personal experience, we know just how hard it is to know what to do or say when a baby dies. We were shocked when we learned just how many people are touched by miscarriage, stillbirth, or neonatal death (death in the first 28 days of life).

We hope everything you find here can serve as a way to encourage you to hold on to hope, something Jethro’s life has helped us to do. We know that God is faithful, He is a good shepherd, and our lives are completely in His hands. He has given us the courage to continue living and loving and filled our hearts with abounding peace even in the midst of suffering and we know He can do the same for you.

We look forward to sharing our stories with you in the coming days, weeks, months and years.